The big R, Rejection.

Rejection is hard, no matter the form.
Jobs, friends, purchases, companions.

Its hard on anyone, no matter your self confidence level.I may be biased, but i feel its harder when you have a high level of self confidence to find out you have been rejected. 

Its hard to understand how someone can reject you, as you think you are pretty damn fantastic.Some people let rejection roll off their back without a second thought.With others, it is not so easy.

For me, i'm the type of person who questions everything. I thirst for knowledge. I constantly ask "why?"

While i understand rejection is part of life, but as a logical thinker i want to know why something did not work.I do not want to just shake it off and carry on, because if i am continuing to do the same thing despite it failing multiple times.... then i'm just insane.
How can one improve for the future, if they do not know why something failed to work the first time?

This thought process follows me around in every aspect of my life, both personally and professionally.
Even engineers take something apart when it fails, to find out why.

Constructive criticism seems to be a lost art. This is mostly because people are too afraid of confrontation. 
Why? The person is already mad that they were rejected, why not give them feedback.

Yet, we only offer an anecdote/cliche in hopes of calming the wound.

The world is full of stupid cliche sayings that are supposed to make one feel better in an array of scenarios. We all know they are bullshit, yet we continue to pass them along. To put a band-aid on the burn.

Stop putting the band-aid on, just pull it off already!

My house, My home--my reason to panic

On May 7th i closed on my house, now the journey to make this my home has begun.

It has been almost a month, and im closer than i truly realized.

It took me only two half days to move in, the joys of being a single person who already had her stuff in storage awaiting the purchase of a house.
It was me, a truck and one male friend to move things for about 3 hours on Thursday and Friday. We mostly dumped it all in the garage for me to deal with later.
I took the next Thursday and Friday off to unpack, and managed to do so successfully.

This past Saturday, i have the pleasure of hosting my very first party and it was my house warming party.
It was a blast, despite my crazy self running around trying to make everything perfect.

Now the task of doing a million things around the house.

How does one organize the unknown?
I'm perfectly aware that my need to organize everything is just my way of controlling the world around me so that i do not feel like a top about to spin off track; unfortunately, i can not organize that which i do not know.

The best suggestion i have so far is to pick a room and focus on that one alone.
This is fantastic, and gave me a place to start.
First up, the bedroom; i figure since that is my sanctuary i might as well start there.
Ill do a post on it later.

In my attempt to organize everything, im feeling very overwhelmed and scatter brained.
I decided to start carrying around a notebook so i can write down ideas i might have along the way.
At least this will help me keep it all together.

I dont even know where to start with home improvements.
Doing this alone is hard, i dont have anyones advice or helping hands.
Nor do i have the second income coming in.
Oh lord, what did i get myself into.

Oh the waiting

It has been almost a month since i found the house im buying, and im going crazy with anticipation.

its all i can think about!!!!!!

18 more days

Yes, i have started the count down.

I feel a tad silly, im a grown woman after all. Its just a house. Yet, a majority of the days, i do not feel like a grown woman. I still feel like the 22-24 year told girl just starting out her life and having no idea which direction she was going to head.

When i leased my first apartment, i thought this would make me feel more like an adult.
When i bought my first car.
When i bought an SUV.

None of these have really changed my feelings about being an adult.

I know im an adult, i have the debt, and the decisions, to prove it.
Maybe my lack of feeling like an adult really has more to do with the fact that im 31 and no bf on the horizon which means no family on the horizon. Who knows.

In the mean time, i am trying to use this waiting period to pre-play; as we all know how much of a planner i am.
I am constantly searching the internet for a million ideas on how to make this house my home. I want it to be put together and look .. well put together. As opposed to looking like an apartment with all my stuff jammed into.

I have decided on how to do my bedroom.
Black and white with red accents (which is my standard colors but i love them).
I will do one red wall with a wall decal above the headboard.
I need to get a bedframe with a headboard, which i do not currently own.
I want a platform upholstered bed, in white i think; so it will have to be leather.

I really want to paint all the interior doors black, but i am hesitant bc of the dark hardwood floors.

I have also picked out the color i will paint my front door and the shutters i will buy for the upstairs window. Granted that project is months away, but i have them picked out.

Now i am working through the bathrooms in my head.
Someone said i should stick to a basic color theme throughout the house.
If thats the case, then Purple and Red are my accent colors and everything else will be black and white. As those are really the only colors i can settle on.

I have also started a "project list," just things that i would like to eventually do.

Google Keep has become a fantastic little post it app.
https://drive.google.com/keep/
I can make the list on my computer and it shows up on my phone.... not too shabby.

18 more days, 11 until i start setting up utilities and such.
I can do this.
Its just a small step in my life.

I fell in love with a house

After two months of searching i have finally found a house.
This has been the most nerve wracking experience, solely based on the fat i am doing it alone.
With no family around, no boyfriend or husband, i have no one to answer questions for me.
I have relied on friends, who i am so grateful to have in my life.

I decided to open up my search area, to broaden the number of houses i would like.
This took me out to Independence, but i was willing to give anything a shot.
There were 5 houses we were looking at that day, but i had already fallen in love with one online and we saved that one for last.
I was nervous, what if it didnt look like the photos. I knew i would be crushed, but i tried to prepare myself for that fate.
Luckily it looked just like the pictures, and my heart melted.

My manager offered to go with me for a second look, just as another set of eyes. I was most grateful for his help as i did not have anyone to look out for me like that.

I decided to just jump in and make an offer.
I had no idea what my offer should be, i dont have knowledge of the value of homes.
My realtor gave me all the usual information, but this still told me nothing.
She said just go with my gut, and i did.
5.5k less their their asking price plus closing costs of 4.5k, they had also offered a 1k card to a furniture store, so i asked for that.
The anticipation was crazy, just waiting.
I expected them to come back with a counter that added the closing costs into the loan price.
Boy was i disappointed.
The sellers made the comment that they needed to net a certain amount in order to sell, so there was no room for adjustments.
They came back asking for full price and only allowing me 4 grand for use how i would like (either 4k in closing costs or 3k in closing and 1k card).
This had me freaking out for a few hours, do i walk away and give up this awesome house or counter back.
I decided to sleep on it.

Turns out, that was the best idea.
I took a lead from the sellers and put my cards on the table.
I made another counter offer that was for their full asking price, but that i needed the full closing costs because i did not have the cash to cover the difference and that i wanted the furniture card because i did not have any furniture.
My realtor had a conversation with theirs about the "whys" and that i was open to other idea.
The seller came back and offered a good chunk of furniture included in the sale of the home.
The original offer included stove, dishwasher, upstairs and downstairs refrigerator, washer, dryer, pool table, kitchen table, dining hutch, couch and love seat.
This was completely satisfactory for me.

So now, the process starts to officially purchase a home.
Im so excited i cant think straight and i wish it was just done already.
The waiting is going to drive me nuts.
 

Gretel is Lost in the Woods.

Last week, i contacted a Realtor to start the prices of buying a house; through the insistence and push of a friend. The Realtor is his mom, but the push was more of a nudge out of the nest.
He was tired of me saying i wanted to get a house and said just do it already.

Monday afternoon i submitted the paperwork to be pre-qualified for a loan. I am currently waiting on the underwriters to give me the final word.

In the mean time, i am on the hunt.

I posed a question on Facebook and Google+ asking my friends for advice that they wish they would have known when buying their houses.
Fantastic advice was given, some i knew and some im glad to know.
The roommate gave me some good advice too, and offered to do a walk through once i found some houses i was interested in. As he has bought and sold multiple homes, i am very grateful for the offer.

Buying a home is a big deal for me for multiple reasons.
One, as long as i can remember my family has never owned a home. (I did later find out my mom owned one when i was a toddler for a brief moment). Being the first person to own a home in my family makes me feel very exploratory. Like i'm Columbus exploring new territory! And while i know my sisters will feel like i'm rubbing it in that i'm better than them. That is not the intent. I'm not better than them, i just made better choices and my choice was not to repeat the family cycle set forth before me.

The second reason this is a big deal is because all my life, until i was 24, i have moved around almost every year. When i was little, a new house every year and sometimes a new school district. My mom finally agreed to stay in one school district during our high school years. Grateful for that.
Then i was in my 18 and carefree, moving from roommate to boyfriend to roommate to boyfriend. It happens.

But over the past two years, i have been desperately searching for roots, for somewhere to belong.
Like most females, i thought this was a relationship. Turns out, i'm not great at those, so i am seeking my roots elsewhere; in a home.

Now, im on the hunt.
Last weekend i drove past 15 houses and only found one that i was even excited to see the inside of.
Someone already has a contract on it, so im still looking.

Gretel, desperately seeking her Gingerbread home

First day of the rest of my life

Tomorrow is the first day of my new life.
I graduated college last week, and have been lucky to have a job to go into using my degree.
Im nervous, i feel like im going to my first day of school!
I dont know what to wear, im about to go hit up a few stores to see if i can find something that just makes me feel pretty.
Im excited for so many reasons, besides the fact that ill be working again. Its a new start, i can meet new people and perhaps find better friends than what ive been dealing with lately.
Interacting with more people gives a greater chance for me to meet a new guy, and i need to find a man in my life.
I dont even have good shoes to wear!!!

I DID IT!!!

This weekend was my graduation from college with a B.S. in Management/Human Resources.
I started in June 2006 with a little nudge from a manager I had. Now here I am 5 years later and im finally done.

Im thrilled! At first, I was feeling like the ceremony wasnt a big deal. But closer to the actually day of the graduation, i started to get nervous and anxious.

My mother lives up here, along with one of my sisters and her 4 kids.
My cousin and baby sister live in Springfield. They have two kids each. All the family was there, although late to the start of the graduation ceremony, but there none the less.

Regardless of the hassles that came with this weekend, and having 14 of my family members in my apartment...

I graduated, 11 years after my high school graduation, but i still have that piece of paper.

My week, in short

Being unemployed does not lead for an interesting life.
Quite boring if you ask me.
But the relaxation time before starting the new job is probably worth it.

Wednesday, Kohls had a 50% off sale on dresses, and while i did not need to spend any more money, i did need a dress for my college graduation next month.
I did manage to get a very nice Croft & Barrow black and white scroll dress, for only $22. I also grabbed a couple suit type jackets which I will need at the new corporate job.

Today, I drove 40 miles to another city to get a refund for my GAP insurance from my old vehicle. (Oh, i bought a new car. 2005 honda accord ex coupe) I thought i would get the check right then but apparently its a 6-8 wek mailer.
I also had dinner with my mom, sister and the 4 kids. That was an interesting adventure.

This weekend im going to go to Springfield to see some family and friends for a few days.

What do you do

When the man of your dreams says the most romantic thing you have ever heard, yet he only sees you as a friend and only meant it as something he would say to his best friend.

Today, my best friend/man of my dreams sent me a text.
"Youre important to me like peanut butter is to jelly. Sure, you can have just one of the two on a sandwich but they are so much better when the other is present. We would do "ok" without each other, but even if we decided to just talk every once in a while, the distance between you and i would never get so far that we just stopped talking. It would stop at a certain point where we both wouldnt let it get that bad."

How does this man not have romantic feelings towards me.

I told him I appreciate the sentiment but that he should keep speeches like that for his gf. He didnt understand so i tried to explain it the best i could.
"while your mother told you to find a wife with hips, mine was telling me that i shouldnt pick someone because i feel that i need them in my life as i do not NEED anyone. but to pick someone because with them you are a better person than you already were, because they compliment you"
The peanut butter to my jelly.

God has a sense of humor. To give me someone whom i cant have.

Being an Adult

Why is it so much harder to make friends as an adult than as a child?
Not to mention making female friends...

Its not as if i can walk up to a girl somewhere and say "wanna play"
Or ask a girl to "be my friend" at the bar...

Dont get me wrong, i manage to talk to females in various places, but none of the conversations end up with the whole "lets get together and see if we could be friends" vibe.

I think my desire to have a boyfriend, steams from not having a best friend. Someone to feel close to, to trust, to tell all my secrets to. (besides strangers in a blog)

Everyone says join a group, or club, or something. The sad part is im afraid of doing stuff alone, so joining a group to meet new people is harder to do alone.

Maybe im crazy.

Its good to spoil yourself

I bought a kindle.

Thought about it for well over a month, as i hate spending more than $100 on one item.
I stared at Amazon, Target, Best Buy... all the while considering the purchase.
Finally, i hunted one down and decided to buy in store vs online just for convenience. First thing i did was download some freebies of course, and found a few on sale for 99 cents. which made me click happy!

I ended up spending 6 hours reading one book and just let my afternoon fade away.

So far, im really thrilled with my purchase. I have yet to find a case i love...
And if anyone has any suggestions for low-cost books that are great reads please dont hesitate to let me know.

Book Review: Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert

Ive never done a book review before, Ive never wanted to review a book. Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert is a book EVERYONE should read.
While i know that is an opinion, I also feel this is fact.

The only thing that made me interested in this book, and i mean the ONLY thing, was that she lived in Italy for a good portion of this book. That is the only reason i bought this.
It was so good, i bought another copy for my cousin. I just want to say ive never bought a book for someone that they didnt specifically ask for.

This book made me look deep inside myself and evaluate me. It made me think about me. It made me feel good, and feel sad, and feel alone and content.... all at the same time. I can honestly say, i found a small amount of peace in my life from reading this book.

Id also like to point out that i never quote anything, but i constantly find myself remembering sentences or events from the book without realizing that its from there.
Tonight, im writing my blog and talking about how love stinks. And i recall a phrase that talks about how all life disagreements can be attributed to two reasons.

"I met an old lady once, almost a hundred years old, and she told me, 'There are only two questions that human beings have ever fought over, all through history. How much do you love me? And Who's in charge?" 
— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)


While you might not completely agree with this, the sentence alone makes you think. 
This whole book makes you think, and ponder events in the world, in your life, in general. And i said ponder, not analyze. 


I want to be as brave as this person, to do something alone. Im struggling just to go out and find new friends alone. Lets not mention how spaztic i got when i decided to go out to eat dinner at TGIF alone.... completely alone.


I will probably never see the movie, just because i know it will take away the parts that i love about this movie.
I also wanted to link this webpage that shows different quotes from the book, even reading some of them makes you want to read more.


And not to plug, but i thought i would link the book, just in case someone wanted to check it out. 

Things get worse before they get better...

My aversion to writing is that i feel i do not express myself very well.
Maybe its because i read so many blogs and tend to compare myself. Or even that i read my friends writings and feel that they are better versed that i could ever be.
Perhaps, i just try too hard to be something im not.

Last night, my sister and i got into an argument. While im sure it wasnt so much the subject of this particular fight, but more a final straw on the camels back, im still sad that it came to this. The end result of the fight was me  washing my hands of her and her drama.
Hopefully this will be for the best, or maybe she will open her eyes and change some things in her life.

Today, my doctor called me about some test results. While im not going to share the subject on here at the moment, i thought the conversation was worth talking about.
The conversation basically was the Nurse Practitioner telling me that the doctor would like to schedule a follow up. Not unusual to receive that call, but the reason was because my test results were "off," who uses the words "off" to describe test results. High, Low, Good, Bad; these are all great adjectives to describe test results. "off" is not something one expects to hear.

Im slightly worried about the discussion, but slightly happy to hear that there is an explanation.
I guess i will know more on friday.

Last night, I laid in bed not being able to sleep, so i decided to find a journal and start writing there. Perhaps ill do this on top of my blog, but i had thoughts running around in my head so fast that needed to get out.
I wrote about a guy.
I wrote about how i met him, and how he makes me feel, and how i love him but he feels nothing for me.
Life kind of blows when it comes to love.

New year, Old habits

So,
I disappeared last year. I couldnt get into the habit of writing, im not a natural writer.
But, life has got me down lately and a writer friend of mine suggested I try again as it helps her get things out.
What do i have to lose???

So dear world....
I want to put my thoughts and feelings out there in the universe. In hopes that it helps me as a person.
Im sad.
Im very sad.
Life is not bad, its actually pretty decent.
So why am I not happy.
Most of my sadness has to do with other people, not so much myself.
My family, my sister and mother who never call me unless they need something from me.
My friend J, who im completely in love with and want to spend the rest of my life with and who only sees me as his best friend.
My friend relationships, I seem to have less people in my friendship circle, and none who i see on a regular basis. Most people I know think this is normal, but im a highly social person and not having people to be around drives me nuts.

As stupid as it is to want this. I really just wish i could wake up and everything be fixed, even if in some magical way.
Thats not realistic, but until i figure out how to make myself happy and get the balls to do it.... its all i have.

So, Im going to try to write again.

My birthday weekend.

I know its been a while since ive posted, theres just always something that is more important.
It happens.

Yesterday was Easter, and once every 7 or 9 years this also happens to be my birthday. I always think its awesome when my birthday falls on a National Holiday; though, it is much harder to find something fun to do.
As per my usual routine, i took an extended weekend away from work, giving me both Friday and Saturday as well as the holiday where we are closed.
Friday i got up early, took my bicycle out and ended up riding 3 miles. Now thats not alot really, but since im just now getting back into the exercise thing im stoked i was able to do that much. Then my friend Chris came over and we went to a few malls and shopped a bit. I was looking for an outfit to wear out Saturday night, but didnt find any. That evening went went to see How to Train Your Dragon in IMAX 3D, i must say it was pretty cool, but only bc it was in 3d. There were tons of kids there, but they were very well behaved so im ok with that. There was one scene where the boy disappeared from the page, the room is silent except for one little girl who asks "whered he go?" it was very cute.
Saturday was eventful again. I got my nails done, and despite my generous tip i was not thrilled with the service. The lady made me bleed (which this salon is usually fantastic) and then she didnt cover the nail completely with the polish, which makes me sad. Again me and my friend Chris went out shopping to another mall, i didnt find an outfit to wear that night but i found a dress to wear to vegas so that made me happy. I ended up dropping him off and going back to the first mall as there was a store i knew i didnt check on Friday. And of course i forgot that its prom shopping time, so it took me FOREVER just to try on my clothes.
I did finally find an outfit so that made me happy, plus found some comfy jeans.
So me and my friends headed out to dinner. Our cabby got to the apartment and that became our first adventure, long story short me and Amanda were in fear of a wreck happening on the way to dinner.
Dinner was a blast, we ate at a Japanese steak house. The show wasnt as flashy as i remember, but everyone does it differently. The food was good, and my friends and i socialized so that made me happy. I was sad that alot of people bailed on me, but whatever it happens i suppose.
After that we headed to Ernie Biggs chicago style dueling piano bar. We had a blast, spent too much money on alcohol and my friend ended up getting sick on the patio. But still ALOT of fun.

Sunday became Part 2 of the BDAY adventure. A couple of work friends decided we should take a road trip. So 5 of us piled into my SUV  at the but crack of dawn and drove 3 hours down to Branson to spend the day. We had a BLAST. Again spent too much money.... But we did the Ripleys Believe it or not, Hollywood Wax Museum, Old Time photo shoot and then go-carts. Stopped and had some ice cream and some fantastic dinner before getting back home just before midnight.

I felt very blessed this weekend, and im still feeling very blessed despite being woken up to a thunderstorm and hail on my window. I must get ready for work now, i hope everyone has a great day like i hope i will have.

Vacation time

Well not really, but i did take the vacation pay.

I had my last two remaining wisdom teeth removed on Monday. Surprisingly i expected much more pain, ive been able to get by with just aleve for the dull ache.

I opted for IV sedatives, knock me out baby! This apparently had very exciting side effects for me, and i say exciting with a sarcastic tone.

According to my lovely friend amanda, i have a extreme attachment to the Fbomb. I announced both mine and her personal issues to the waiting room and apparently offered to be her surrogate mother (not that im completely against the idea of she needed me). Its a good thing i dont have any deep dark secrets, otherwise im sure i would have spilled those beans.

All in all, i feel half empty in my mouth. I cant wait for some real food, ive been craving chipotle for a few days. Not that its considered real food but i am tired of soup and applesauce (which apparently a girl can live on just fine mind you, as im not starving)

Its wednesday, this 5 days of vacation went fast. I must actually do something with my life... but first a game on xbox.

For the love of a Dog

When a person is lonely, they look for something to fill the gap. This often leads to a companion of sorts. Typically if there is a bf/gf, they spend more time with them. Some women tend to go into what i call "baby mode" and cant stop thinking about babies, think about having babies, or spending more time with friends/families babies. Typically i tend to do the later of the 3 in order to fend off the baby vibes i have as i know i am not ready to raise a baby, much less raise one on my own.
Some women do not care about being ready for having a baby or not, they just want something to love and something to love them.

Since im slightly smarter than that, i have decided i am going to get a dog instead. Something to love, something to love me, and i dont have to put it through college.

But living in an apartment makes the task of finding the right type of dog hard. It needs to be small enough for apartment life, but typically i am a big dog person. So, compromising will be hard, especially since i hate the whole teacup, miniature type dogs. I am so not a Paris Hilton wanna-be.

My hope is to figure out what type of dog will work best in an apartment, or at least get a few breed types, and then head down to a few of my local no kill shelters in the area and see who i can bring home.

I was bored one day and went into Petland. God i hate the whole puppy mill scenario but GOD these babies were adorable. I was also introduced to a breed that i fell in love with. Just look at him, hes adorable. Hes a BOGGLE, which is a cross between boston terrier and beagle. But being ok with $400-500 for the dog is NOT something i can do at this time. Doesnt mean i cant oo and ahh over him all day!!!!

The decision to get a dog is something i have been thinking about for a while. As this has to be something i want to do for a long period of time, especially since im in an apartment. #1 i have to put a $300 deposit down to have the dog, plus increases my rent by $15. And then if i change apartments, i have to start all over again. This could get difficult. Which is another reason i refuse to shell out alot of cash for a dog.

As always, any suggestions are appreciated.

Money doesnt buy happiness...

We all know how true this statement is. Yet, we continuously try to achieve this.

Are we ever truly happy with our lives?

I often wonder, i mean, theres always something we could change.
Do i hate my job, of course. But i am satisfied at this point because this time last year i was without a job. I will continue to look for a job, but i dont think anyone just stands still in life. When we find a job we do not hate, we will still look towards a better career.
Do i hate myself as a person? Only on some days when i do something that requires me to suddenly go to confessional, but for the most part no i do not hate myself. When things are going good in my life, all the stars align.. Life really is good.

Part of my New Years Resolution was to work on me.......... In my head, for some reason, this meant getting my home life in order as well as my physical me. Meeting the goals for my household you could say. To me, this meant buying the things that i had wished for a while back. My first big screen lcd, organizational items for the kitchen to improve my cabinet space, extra blankets/sheets/towels so i am not using the same ones over and over. However, i realized today as im watching my awesome new tv, i was buying items to make myself feel like i was important in the world. To have a purpose when i come home to an empty house, to have something i had to do outside of the house.
But buying these things has not filled the void. And while i knew that, i tried anyway. When the world calms down, and im relaxing... i still feel alone.

But spending all the money i can spare on material things only makes me feel complete for a short amount of time. And i am seriously craving companionship... i even had the "i want a baby thoughts" which really really is not cool as i can not afford a baby nor do i want to raise one on my own.

Random Catchups

As its been almost a week since my last blog, i decided to again mash a couple subjects into one blog.

Its tax time, and like most people i have been mulling over how to spend my tax dollars.
After much research, and going back and forth over what i really wanted new in my life i have decided to get out of my old tv and into a new flat screen tv. I didnt want to spend a whole lot so i called some friends to see what kind of deals i could get through their channels. In the end i got a Sony Bravia 46" LCD from my friend Joe through his connection. Its slightly used, but still in perfect condition.
For some reason i am overly excited. My friend Chris went with me to pick it up and he hooked up my xbox and dvd player to the tv. He was nice enough to also tweek the settings. He then proceeded to make fun of me to some of his friends when they called. Apparently i said, more than once, YAYYYY i got a big screen tv!!!!!!!!!!!!
What can i say, im easily excitable.

This morning, i watched some of my dvr shows and realized that there really IS a difference between regular and HD channels. I have been missing out for SO long.

What can you do....

The rest of my money will be put into the credit union account i opened, other than expenses for the Las Vegas trip of course. I was told that having a reputation with a credit union is better than with a regular bank, while i cant say i believe it 100%, in theory it sounds logical so i am more than happy to go that route.

Tomorrow is Super Bowl, and some friends of mine are going Rock Climbing in the morning before the game. I dont know if i will participate, but i will at least come out and take some photos.

I will be working for 8 days straight after this weekend. Im slightly disappointed in that, but i guess i cant complain too much. The ASM at work took over making the schedule, so hopefully i will notice a difference and it will be for the better.

The job hunt is still on, though not as aggressively as i would like. I went to a testing last thursday as i mentioned. I can type 82 wpm. *applause applause* I sent a follow up email on Wed night, but have yet to hear anything back. It makes me nervous, as i really want this job, however i am trying to stay positive.
The job market is tough, there are so many people looking for a change, and so few jobs; employers can afford to be picky. I actually saw a secretarial position which required a 4 year degree. Personally i think thats ridiculous.

Any job hunting advice?

Mid-Week Mash Up

Its Wednesday (incase you have yet to realize this).

As typical for anyone who works, we cant wait for friday. So instead of getting ready for work as i should be, i decided to catch up on my blogs and write a new one.

Whats new in my life?

I still hate my job, ive been applying for pretty much everything i find online. I dont know what i want to do til i get my degree. I want a job where i can turn it into a career and work my way up the corporate ladder once i do finish my degree. So does everyone else.....

I did have a job testing thing last Thursday at this insurance company. Tested how well i follow directions, that i apparently type 82 wpm (woot!) and if i can navigate around the internet (surprise surprise i can).

I have yet to hear back from them for my phone interview, but patience is important right?

The problem with job hunting, in my opinion, is that i truly believe the best jobs that a person gets are when they have a friend who helps the process along. I think that you have to know someone to get a decent job, ive proven it a few times but nothing to make a statistic of.

Two Saturdays ago i went to a dinner party to meet a friend of a friend who had just moved back to the KC area. Cool dude, i offered to take him to some new sights in the area that have appeared since he last lived here, so this past Sunday i took him to the Sprint Center to the College Basketball Experience. It was pretty cool. To me, who is not a huge basketball fan, it seemed like $12 to play basketball. I suppose it was cool having the goal lowered so that i could dunk and learning different facts.

Monday, i was a good girl, and cleaned the WHOLE apartment. Well, i did skip the bathroom. However, i even stripped the bed and did the sheets! I did some more searching online for deals in vegas. In May my girlfriend Tricia is getting married in vegas. This will be my first EVER trip. I wasnt sure i was going to be able to go. But after getting my W-2s and filing taxes turns out i will have more than enough money to pay off some bills and be able to make it to vegas. So far, with hotel and flight, im looking at around $500 (which includes all taxes, fees, and junk). 

If anyone has any good deals please please please comment. I am looking to fly southwest due to their no baggage fee. I would like to stay some where on the strip; decent, yet get the full vegas experience. I want to see a showgirls show and possibly stop by a strip club (just to say ive done it).

After being robbed in November, ive slowly been replacing my stuff. My friend Joe gave me one of his laptops and also sold me an xbox for WAY cheap. i bought a DVD player and thanks to me exempting my commission check i was able to buy a new point n shoot camera. Its BEAUTIFUL and will be here sometime this week.  Its a Sony Cybershot W-230 which i got brand new for $145. Its a great deal in my opinion, but thats probably bc i paied $200 for a 8 MP a few years ago and this one is a 12 mp. I also bid on a used off camera flash for my Canon Xti. Typically they run about $200, but i decided that id just go with a used one and maybe ill get lucky and get it for less than $50. The auction runs for 6 days, well 5 days now. Cross your fingers.

Ahh, so i need to get ready for work. Oops.

Have a great day Blogger world.